Friday, 30 November 2018

Like clockwork migraine

For about 5 weeks now each Saturday has been a migraine day. Waking up with a migraine, enduring it through the day, sleeping when it is too difficult and hoping it will eventually wear off. This is Sunday and it still hasn't worn off fully it gently waits in the wings but I am sure when waking up on Monday morning all will be fine.All clear and I'd gotten through another weekend of incapacity.

This has got to be related to an event which causes stress and the only event during the week is work. Five days of work and two days of disability. So it is related to the constant stresses in the workplace which are building up like a kettle about to boil, then come to boil on the sixth day and final release is the seventh day. It's not possible to do the work of two or three people, it is only possible to do the work of one. Given time to breath there are chances to relax and think about becoming more efficient, however if there is an inefficient system in place then any adjustments have to be made around that said system. Such is the way IT works. I want to do one thing but in order to do it then I may have to run around the block a couple of times. After running around eventually tiredness sets in, and in mental running about mental stress and exhaustion set in.

I like my job, I like the responsibilities, the pay and the working conditions. It has taken years to get where I am, and though I have misgivings about those who manage me (but not in all cases) working in this organization has become more pressurised and difficult. Particularly more so as budgets have got tighter and are now like a noose around the neck of a condemed man moments from swinging. The migraines are a mental release of built up pressure. If I hang on there long enough then the situation is going to change and they will go away. I hope.








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